I am going start this off with saying that one of my largest fights is hope. I listen to myself purposefully threading hope into my speech with people but I find myself failing to hope myself. I would consider myself an optimist, but as I seem to be getting older and more unknowns and new choices and paths are set before me, I find it a great deal more difficult to remain hopeful of and in very many things I once was able to. I am having trouble learning hope. Believing hope, is what it comes down to, for I already know of where it can be singularly found.

I feel change, and it is exciting, but not as exciting as it was to me as it once was. I can make a decision and be at peace with it, it is the after feeling, "The Shift". The Shift of thinking from what was going to be to the now and what is going to be. I can attribute it to looking through a telescope out over a landscape, and looking at something you think is what your are supposed to be looking at but then getting tapped on the shoulder and pointed to a different spot, the feeling of moving, and slowly refocusing the lens.

All the while, there is a sense of progression in life, and I am thankful to God for that.